Ok so I just really need to rant about some stuff in my life. Get it off my chest sorry. But I found one of the best ways to get things off my chest is to get stuck in a barrel for 4 hours and talk to myself between groups. I solved a lot by doing that but now I have more to solve, and I hopefully wont be in the barrel anymore(the girl that was in it got hurt and I had to take her place) lol but nothing important really. Thanks anyways and sorry for the long time of nothingness, im working on school, band, art projects, typing, and Shadow so im pooped. Did you know they wont let you quite marching band, I have tired three times and they wont kick me out! Arrg!

Shadow Asylum started (haunted house where I work) which makes me extremely happy, I love that place. Now lets take a little trip back in time, where things weren’t soo good. That guy I was talking about, that kissed me, yeah we started a relationship. It was amazing! I loved hanging out with him, and just being with him, he was one of the few people I could actually stand to be with and in a way still is. But all good stories have to come to an end.

I started to think he was cheating on me, he wasn’t texting me so much, and we weren’t able to hang out as much either. But hey, any girl would think he was cheating on them if that happened, but he also wouldn’t tell me what was wrong, something was always wrong and making him angry, but he wouldn’t tell me. So I started getting angry at him, thus ending the story of us.

But the whole story doesn’t end there. I tried texting him to talk to him. He told me before we started dating if we broke up he still wanted to be friends, and I did to. But every time I texted him he yelled at me which just made me angrier. So after sometime I couldn’t take it anymore, and stopped. That was the weekend of Zombie bowl, and we never said a word to eachother. The next day he texted me and apologized for everything and that he still wanted to be friends. I said ok.

He then tried telling me that he missed me and missed dating me. My heart sunk and flew at the same time. But I said that too, cause a stupid part of me wanted to be back with him. Stupid me! That weekend at Shadow, we worked together all weekend. Just me and him and some times my other friend. But when we got to this one room he kissed me. Oh how I had missed that, but I started crying, I didn’t know what his intentions were and that’s what scared me. He apologized. I think that ruined things for us.

Then the guy who cheated on me started hitting on me again. And I would have went out with him but I had Colin to worry about. So I texted him and asked if he still liked me. He replied, idk, I like being with you and it felt good. That doesn’t help.

So I continued to look from afar, then I found out he was dating a new girl. I called him a bastard and said he could go fuck himself and that he was afraid of commitment. But I didn’t actually say that to him, I told it to my friend, well I should have known better then to trust him with that information, cause he showed it to Colin. Thanks jerk. Now Colin wont even talk to me. And that’s why things are good.

I no longer have to worry if he still likes me, or if we have a chance. And my bad mood is gone. Thank god! But back to now. There is this guy who means everything to me and is like a big brother. When we are alone its like im everything to him and that we might have a chance at something. But if you put him with other girls its like im just a friend. Everyone at Shadow thinks we are dating(and half the band) but if they know we are not they are trying to get us together. And his ex girl friend, I told her off and it felt good, she needs to get over him and move on, they don’t have a chance now, stop with the drama bitch!

Idk what my future holds, but right now life seems good, and once Shadow gets over I might upload some of my adventures at working Shadow. So be on the look out if you like funny, messed up, and sometimes spooky stories. I can’t wait to tell you guys me stories, so wish me the best of luck with my drama. And maybe I will come out of this year with a boyfriend or better terms with Colin and Aaron.